Sunday, November 09, 2014

Peacefully, back...

Having been back to Ops for a week, nothing special, nor exciting; just feel like being true to myself eventually.  I'm not saying I'm uncomfortable with being in sales and marketing, just I'd prefer the work of Ops and SCM more.  Interests, maybe...?

This senior position was not expected and I only knew it when the email sent to all managers was read.  Maybe I'm blessed but I don't really get any passion or emotion from the change.  Forgive me if I've given anyone cold shoulder with all the "congratulations".  I grinned as just courtesy.

Seven years had passed.  I learnt from my experiences.  My work 3 years ago was completely wiped.  It's more than a matter about certainties and uncertainties.  The game is still on.  The rules are still there, so as the tricks by all players.  I need to be calm and patient, and be more organized in dealing with this complicated web like challenges.  The key to succeed is not to knock down any of my opponents but just simply to try to be the last one standing.  It doesn't matter what the policy and politics are and will be, the more important is how they're interpreted and implicated.  No rush to build my party; a revolution will come eventually. 

Friday, October 03, 2014

慶幸

25年前我媽媽帶著少不更事的我和妹妹到跑馬地參與集會以示支持。很慶幸當年媽媽這樣做,讓我們長大後明白當時的意義及有機會見證那歷史一刻。

近日香港發生同類事件,但我毫不猶疑做隻縮頭龜只以僅有的微力參與網上運動作支持,因為今時不同往日,覺得社會已變質;而我也從未感覺香港如此混亂不安。很慶幸我沒有走出來更沒有把女兒和太太帶出來。出動煙霧彈還不止,更甚是警氓合作。現在政府不可信,警察不可靠,家已不成家。但,相比當年還有憧憬,現在僅餘絕望。

或者我要效仿我父母帶家人離開這地。其實現在一家回流都怪我當年,現今有一種禍及至親的罪惡感。

Thursday, October 02, 2014

另類

突然覺得自己真的是百份百非主流兼異相。我看到全世界都在讚美,但"主"流卻說蒙羞於世,把焦點轉移,把責任推卸。我自幼成長的環境,我及我的先輩們,一直以來都是努力就會有成果,終歸會如願以償;但現在無論怎出力,多出力,都是徒然。更可怖,絕望是唯一希望,奮鬥只可換來逆來順受,無論我想不想、接不接受,這都是唯一的生存之道,日覆日,如無間地獄。選擇不再是奢侈品,已變成天上的星星,閃亮,給予希望,卻遙不可及。才17年就變成這樣,不敢想像到了伯伯當年承諾的限期時會變成怎樣,更不想去想,因為只會無比不堪惋惜。

Sunday, September 21, 2014

壓力

不經不覺,不知何時開始,香港的教育表面上越變細化優秀,實則越變不知所謂。

全日制真的有利學生嗎?  相比當年只見多了食飯時間和一些課節來提供所謂的多元教學。而這些真的有必要嗎?  只覺學生私人時間更少了,童真被多掠去一分,小小年紀一日7小時在校被安排,難道這是強國又一無思想只執行奴才培育的陰謀?

全日制造就了多校環境,更可悲的是所謂的小班教學令一間小學最多只收約130人。出名的不出名的只要有家長心儀都肯定被爭崩頭。而因為學位不平均弄至表面學位不足,學校普遍收生都要求1-1-1,變相揀選學校一開始就只有硬著頭皮一直壓落去,有如賭大小,尤其標準15分學童,作為家長真的感覺喘不過氣。不是怕因為選錯壓錯最後派不好日後被子女怪責,是更害怕選錯害了愛兒一生一世。

香港幾時變得那麼令人覺得如此不安穩?  除了爭奪就只有無奈接受。這樣的環境孕育出來的下一代還會有見地有前途有希望嗎?

真的,有時望著愛兒有種抱歉羞恥把她帶到這亂世受苦罪惡之感。

Reina, I love you.  Forgive us although your life is harsh, we never want to put you through these difficulties.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Twins

They marked my old sweet time...


Saturday, August 02, 2014

七夕.快樂

今夜星空無限美