08鑊鑊甘

好不容易，2008終於過去。

一月 - 姨媽媽懷疑身體狀況變差 x 仁生“至甘”最不開心的生日

二月 - 庸者肆虐，怒氣沖沖喊人事變革，當劊子手

三月 - 新任務(x 2 +1)，自討苦吃，結果累斃兼闖下886 x 15,000大禍

四月 - 畢生難忘，黑歷史，日月無光，每天活在極度惶恐下 x 犧牲行程之餘，還從此改變仁生

五月 - 父親大人入院受人生第一刀 x 工潮疊起

六月 - 母親大人發現得重病，開始艱辛痛苦的療程

七月 - 硬着頭皮“踩場”，荊棘滿途不討好

八月 - 禍不單行，無明火生

九月 - 一心好意，事與願違，失落，對自身民族絕望

十月 - 仁生谷底，不斷反問仁生為何，感覺被至親背後狂插捅死

十一月 - 仁生新一頁，含痛捨摯愛

十二月 - 為將來忙碌兼懮心 + 徹底放血

2008乃仁生刻今最苦暗的一年，簡直是個惡咒，仁生不但因此而遭逢巨變，從此更可能會過我最鄙視、最嗤之以鼻的生活來渡過餘生；上天從我及我身邊的人身上拿走了很多很多寶貴的東西，但可能給了我仁生最寶貴的。我只能做的，就是盼望惡夢止於08，明年09厄運大亦轉。

惜昔

Eh-Lu猶在。

Woodbridge的 Robert Mondavi原封。

女人本色不看。

NaNa照看。

Sor Bear猶愛。

小泰永遠是小泰。

雖然已今非昔比，但有些承諾，既然沒法實現，也沒需要去破壞，只會原封不動；同樣，有些生活細節習慣，也不會因為改變而刻意改變，只會如昔繼續。我非常珍惜過去的一切一切，畢竟那是真實發生過；我不但幸福過，還上了人生寶貴的一課。無論日後會發生任何事，我對此態度依舊：默默守護那回憶。

是，我還在往前走，但我敢說，我比任何人更珍惜、更緬懷那段過去。

一小步

上年這段時候到過日本觀摩Toyota Production System(TPS)，親歷Toyota在其Tsuzumi (Assembly) Plant展示其盛名的TPS。今天有幸能attend曾在Taiichi Ohno親身指導下領悟真正TPS的Hitoshi Yamada的TPS研討會，學到他怎樣學以致用及他從TPS引申的“活人”和“活空間”理論。

Yamada-san 其實只是從原有的概念走出一小步，多想多試多做，這樣的一小步就令他獲得畢生受用的智慧。而我，沒有他的才幹，未能參透活用TPS的哲理，但上了他的這一課，我也有所得著，走出了一小步。

真希望一小步一小步最終能走出黑暗。

紀念

上次掉失了想找回一模一樣的，豈料沒貨只好另擇相似。時移世易，今天碰巧讓我遇見，雖然意義不再，但沒多想，拿了過柜台，訂了副與當時一模一樣的，始終，總有無可代替的，就算已今非昔比，但情意猶存。

慨嘆．苦笑．自作孽無可怨...

對不起...

*Photo added on 11/22/2008

Day of Change

Mummy just finished her second stage of treatment; the third stage will commence in two weeks. Before the Doctor left for the day, he asked about our plan on how we were going to celebrate for Mummy for completing her second stage. Ya... Mummy is recovering and doing well, and just another step her footprint will finally mark on the land of Eternal Victory.

I am not a political guy but I must say today signifies a change of the world by Barack Obama. US today is no longer the US of yesterday. Change has occurred and US has proved to the world that she is the Land of Fairness and Possibility. Under the current circumstances his new government will be put under and forced to react splendidly on the challenges that would not be solved out easily, even with the aids from gigantic forces overseas. The tsunami by financial crisis spread through not only within US, but has extended to the whole world echoing back and forth, snowballing making more severe damages countries by countries. Even though I am just a small potato I am and believe will be acutely impacted by this terrible tide. Hopefully his vision and policy will not only stop it but help to recover the global economy into a reasonable shape. His plan on defense and military might also ease the lives of many around the world, directly and indirectly promoting peace all over the 7 continents. I hope happiness can finally be restored to all the innocent souls of us.

Today also marks another page of my life. It has been years and it is hard and painful for me to make up my mind. Complaints, quarrels and even fights did not stop me, but this time, I have to give in and do it. Tears shed, both on my face and in my heart. All I can say I treasure and “miss” everything I had. And I hope my decision can turn out in good turn, even it is a sudden one. May my life will change positively, although I am rather pessimistic on that.

泳池釣魚

仁生如題。

每天過着苦笑的生活。對人，假仁假意，皮笑肉不笑，為求目的不顧一切；對仁，騙了全世界後再若無其事催眠自己，惡心恐慌，所做又與現實相違，無奈有耐，累透。

理想不能視作夢想，因夢想達之則不再夢想，仁生所為則毫無意義。但明知理想的將來不現實仍日日無謂期待並為此而活，終日自欺欺人，如題，只怕含憾而終。

何苦?

已經很久沒閑時，天天經歷無間地獄，夢裏遇見的盡不如意，但一有時間都為了一句話東撲西搜，但發現被隱瞞後換來的冷言大條道理都是我錯，心實了，不能字語化表達，只能撫心自問何苦?

思念換來的回應竟如斯轟烈無情，落得如此下場，教我可會死心。可能我只不過是個揮之則來扔之則去的Cushion，只在有需要時被召來依偎。

可能我真的該好好考慮可需繼續?

倘若有天我心變異，別怪我。

何必?

我承認那並非百份百的理由，但無可厚非，我為什麼要這樣做? 做了那麼多為的又是什麼? 到頭來竟然又被backstabbed，心死了，烣盡滅，好想離開，但最後始終留係度獻世，日日做著同樣的苦役補鑊，日日被同樣的問題困擾著，而問題的root cause就是我為之出手之處，但又不被了解更莫講領情，我又何必自作孽犯賤挨苦?

好了，其中一個較擔憂的包袱被擱下，可以花多點時間做我想也應該做的事，是件好事。

我啃唔落

攞威攞彩，行政精彩；
辦事能力，人事無力。

吹得就吹，推得就推；
無事出頭，有事宿頭。

訓示一流，做嘢即溜；
字字豬機，悶鬼死你。

職務龐大，責任狂貸；
揾佢揹飛，實做死你。

事事無plan，有排你驚；
Action唔多，成日甩拖。

成事不足，敗事有餘；
你所委托，永無着落。

事後檢討，係佢最好；
話佢唔好，實有排嘈。

呢個部門，如何是好?
如此落去，劈炮唔撈!

放

呢期真係好down.

太陽好猛，天朗氣清，係好亦係壞。

知道可以有私人時間，天時地利人和，決定relax下，去踩單車。

去到大埔都唔早，租咗單程去大圍，隨意踩到海濱，經沙田去馬鞍山，再返沙田去大圍。

可能太曬，路都無乜人。著埋黑色，迫埋汗出嚟，不停灌水，希望天氣轉涼前盡減。

比預期前早到，亦都無預期咁有效，但無可厚非，心情已經比之前好好多。

Shame on Me

Yes, we held the Olympics.
Yes, we sent couple of spaceships up to the space.
Yes, everyone is trying to dig a share off our wealth.

BUT,

We made harmful dog food that poisoned some lovely puppies overseas.
We manufactured toys which contain lead that can poison some innocent children.
And now, we even have toxic milk powder that kills babies.

Just disappointing.

I just had a terrible experience.

The dumbies supposed to be in-charge of some preparation of the Mid-Autumn function were unwilling to bear responsibilities, so they basically did absolutely NOTHING until I urged/ordered them to do so. Plan was discussed but was not executed as supposed, just acted as they like. No order, true ugly faces come when there is conflict over individuals’ values. Corruption, even for some cheap crap. The whole scenario was in terrible chaos; people shouting, squeezing, and fighting just for something with almost no value. Some shameful bastards even thought that since the gifts were meant to be for them so just gave them, no rule or order should be applied; did not matter if it was fair to others.

Sad.

In conclusion,

Chinese does not know how to queue.
Chinese does not care for the others, AT ALL.
Chinese’s value is “just get it before it runs out; does not matter if it is needed”.
Chinese is neither logical nor trying to be.
Chinese is short sighted and does not consider anything happens the day after.
Chinese in general is born and educated to be uncivilized.

I’m proud that our ancestors made some of the greatest history that changed the world, but I just won’t feel proud to be a Chinese living in the present. I would be “faceless” if I stand among people coming from other parts of the world.

Shit.

一年

咁就一年。

返咗嚟一年，回望，好似乜都無做到，乜都做唔到，但係無可否認身邊已經變咗好多，但係好係壞就唔知，亦都無閑情去理。

日日都好忙，自己攞嚟。制度無變，日日爆獲，救火，揹起啲鑊，越揹越多，砸死。求變，一步一步實行，一句推翻，照舊，日復一日，無間，心身皆殘，等死。

黑暗，無光，無望，全間都係咁，包括我在內，哀。

>.< 放血 by 瑞華行

咁多收獲，只為這盒...

瑞華行，我恨你狠!~

劫-疲-瘁

08年乜衰嘢都可以發生:

1. 姨媽媽身體懷疑有事...

2. 生日流流差啲攪到春節晚會不保...

3. 公司廢柴無道；人事變動兼一額汗...

4. 海關無間噩夢 (2個月)；US trip都被迫cancel...

5. Daddy不適；入院做手術...

6. Mummy證實患病；入院做手術(Daddy手術後的3個星期)...

7. Mummy要接受辛苦的治療...

8. 生產線火燭...

一個又一個劫順應而來。身心皆疲，未有時間休息又嚟下一劑。無奈，死頂，再嚟，心真係瘁...

絕對懷念

無意在葵芳新都會廣場的明信片展看到:

再過多兩個月整個Pennsylvania都應該很美... 很懷念在Pattee Library外邊嘆espresso邊嘆落葉的日子，真是可一不可再...


80-81-84... 為何當時沒見到? 我定必買來留念...

原地跑

日復一日，每天無奈地做着同樣的事，過着同樣不想過的生活，接受着同樣無賴的天意惡搞。唯一不一樣的，可能是“日日新鮮日日甘”。

以為一直向前跑就可以衝出厄運，衝了那麼久，才發現自4月就其實一直在原地跑，原封不動，走不出。

騎呢@瘋仁工作室

別問我做乜

巧合。本來想買，但Out of Stock，點知一個月後用同樣價錢買咗同一個model嘅升級版。蔡翁失買焉知非福?



升級啦。我不嬲唔知自己想要乜，我依家連自己唔想要乜都唔知，只係一味向前行。係我無能做好當前呢個位所以越來越無主見，定係我上得呢個位可以揀嘅反而越來越少?

我終於明白咩叫做“身不由己”。

冰鮮感情

無意間發覺放在當眼處的“女人本色”DVD 封塵了。這套曾期待，承諾，再無了期地等待觀看的電影是我一直珍惜留着與最愛分享的。再環顧又發現只看了不到一半便一直拖到現在的“太陽之歌”。這些都是已計劃但因一次又一次的命運惡搞被打入當眼卻又永無止境的冷宮，似是無聲地抗議又像是諷刺着，面對它們倒覺得有點無奈惋惜。

感覺得到，好像出了點事，變了質。我不希望，也從不會故意去破壞。只是一次又一次命運的作弄使我疲於奔命無暇照料。我可不能怪任何人或物，要怪就只能怪自己是個不折不扣的“天煞克星”。

如果任何東西冰鮮之後解凍都能保持原汁原味，我真希望我在4月24日前已把之冰封。有朝一日當時機來臨時真希望解凍後能再一次體會那份百感交集的珍貴感情。

我是多麼的渺小；這期望簡直就像螞蟻要跨過喜瑪拉雅，多麼遙不可及。

厄運何時了?

先是Emama，再是公司，之後是Daddy，然後是Mummy，到底幾時才放過我們?

在我歸家之後家人及公司都起了不同程度的negative變化。難道我真的是個不折不扣的“天煞克星”?

如是真的，那我真希望祈求的可以達成。

(Multiple)仁生交叉點

不知是最近發生的事還是仁到了這個年紀，突然多了很多事物需要選擇和取舍。一個又一個的交叉點所編排的最終結局都不一樣；而不像Flow Chart 是沒法看到全面的利害關係去走Shortest Path或防止走到Undesirable Terminals。

有時真的不懂如何去選下一步；我其實可能較需要領悟接受成果的能耐。

絕地心死

明知是錯還去做，高估了自己的忍耐力，糾纏了很久，始終注定失敗。

我覺得這是我與生俱來的責任，覺得自己是要去做的，但事與願違，做了那麼多反而只得反效果，還被至親唾棄，感覺比死更難受。

我一早就知道是可以的，我一早就知道我可以置身事外，但見雙親所受，覺得我是要去做的。制度虛設，人心不穩，效率無存，明知明受盡責罵，一次又一次的改革，以為就算是披著血只要一直向前衝也能到達目的地，卻在他們眼中是多此一舉。終於明白何以23年來都留不住一個懷才的忠臣。

我放棄的、所受的也是自討苦吃，是我犯賤。我真的可能是愚忠、多疑，我可能真的應該去為自己而活。待劫後重生穩定後，可能一走對大家也是最好。

I wish it's the end...

After all the suffering and hardship it seems to have come to the end. I understand how terrible and horrible it is, and I know exactly it will be absolutely my turn next time. I know the aftermath will still haunt us, like a curse chanted again and again, till it returns in 3 years. Then the cycle will restart and repeat, till the last breath I have.

Sad life; so sad.

Gave it up...

Yesterday was the last day for my ticket to be valid, without any opportunity to hesitate I had to give it up. For the fact of the current issues, I believe that is just the corner of an iceberg and there are more treasures of mine yet needed to be sacrified.

Passion of life totally does not exist in my mind.

That's life; and it's real bad...

Hoped a lot, but nothing comes true.

Have been expecting my trip to US, expecting something I have desired for long. Shit happened, plan ruined, I hoped for the best and thought that I had expected the worst, but when it came, it still hurt. I had my hope till the night before my scheduled flight but I still had to let it go. What the 4vck the Heaven wants from me? I have more than enough shit already. Can't you just give me a break?

Damn it!

Curse of Spring

It has been being a curse to me, in spring, especially in April if my memory is not wrong.

I am not the type of coward that tries to escape from challenges, but this time, I really want to stay away from the misfortune. I fully know that if something really goes undesired it will just become a disaster and hurt all. PLEASE, SPARE US!!

Nightmare. I do not stop just worrying about now but for the future! If nothing is improved I and my family members in future will definitely be hurt and haunted. I truly believe it is time for me to setup the foundation to refresh and straighten everything, and for me to act right upon before it becomes too late. I care less about who will be the barrier but I swear I will just nail him straight down to meet Satan.

The picture posted by my beloved on her blog actually has another meaning, but it makes me feel warm and I regard it a lucky charm to me and my family for the current issue. Thank you so much, my DEAREST.

If Heaven owe me a wish as compensation for all my never-come-true Birthday wishES over the years, this time, please, shower my family with all my missing blessings so that everyone and everything will turn out fine.

I am not religious but now I realize how feeble I am in front of cruelty. The breathlessness is going to kill me someday. I have the urge to find a personal space just for hide.

Some Megapascal

平時上班老是想多睡一會，但這兩天可以睡長一點卻一早就醒來，想再睡都睡不著。

今天無計劃，只有個不一定要達到的目的，就是去荃灣廣場參觀高達三國展。不想想，連錶都不戴不想給自己有時間的壓力，在不知道荃灣廣場正確位置及怎樣去到我就上了一架開往荃灣的巴士。到了總站，知道過了，慢慢找回頭路回去，雖然是兜圈，但在那段真正綠色帶有清新空氣的小路漫步真是很refreshing，我開始明白為何我爸喜歡遊車河和有事沒事都走去散步。

走完一段比原路更長的“冤枉路”，漫不經心地達到了目的，在不知道下一步和更往後的情況下我開始慢慢磨時間。去了千色店聽了一個又一個帶誤導性的傳銷，去了久違了的荃豐無意買到要買的東西，在沒預期或期望的情況下享受了一頓很出眾的素食下午茶作午飯。到了差不多有點想回程時經過小巴站看到有綠Van去葵芳，我就上車去了葵涌廣場；之後在回程時路經旺角又stop by去了Muji買筆簽名和在BSX買了2件上班衣服。

雖然像是很無拘無束，但我承認還是有心並盡力去揾風筒for benchmarking，亦有見到個“摺衫板”的design打算怎樣與team members 分享。換一句話，還是離不開工事。而我的心其實也總是有根刺。怎樣說，那15,000 pcs 要rework 怎樣算我都是負最大責任的人。無論過多久，我看我也很難釋懷。

By the way, 是我無心裝載所以失憶，還是壓力過大有太多事物要想要記而導致沒記性?

按照Physics 來算，除非我有較大的肩膀，要不然這樣的workload 所繁生的壓力將足夠壓死我。

I-P-O

透支了，很累…

沒有也不是學習的時候，不像以前實習演練，失手傷不至肉，還有下次。不容錯敗，因這是實戰，每戰戰果都會陪我亦直接影響我餘生…

算完再算，出連環計，算後果，好壞都得承擔。不夠經驗，計謀、部署、手段都不及眾對手，不過不失已是贏。很開心在蘇州學到的能學以致用: 部署、運籌、痛殺。不求進攻，這一刻能牽制對手已足夠，已夠我保住自己及地位。

終於明白“政策 - 對策”之美，不管何策，唯“良策”方可控制大局。

日復一日，仿如無間，身累心更累，但已沒抽身機會。別怪我，我真的需要靜下來一個人調息身心。

仁之道

常仁不可理喻

待我劉禪者慘

靜觀而狠殺之

恥於辦事不力

性情變運籌便

謝絕廢人糞話

勤而無功則退

小事做唔好，大事做唔到

隨心行

有想過，但沒確定。

去了大埔，想看看那裏居住環境，感覺不是很好。

曾想過既然單車徑是從大圍至大埔，而前者肯定有單車租，那後者應該有吧?

走到舊區，看見了。店外的單車都是短身Mountain Bikes，易控制，但動作會笨拙。我要求要較長身的，結果害到那哥哥仔搬開倉庫裏幾部單車才拿到一部較適合的(但還是只有我“藍風”的2/3身長)。試了性能，反應尚可，調了seat位高度，它的噩夢開始了。

找到往海濱的路，先到北(?)面去。經過“回歸塔”後直去到盡頭才回頭。過了大埔的排水道，是一段以前踩過但陌生的路(對上一次也有13年了吧... 變的還真多...)。踩了大概一個鐘，經過“科技園”、“馬場”、“沙田市中心”、“文化博物館”直到前無去路。轉左過了橋，沿海濱長廊又踩多差不多一個鐘，經過“麗豪”、“小瀝源”入“馬鞍山”，直至踩到盡頭“烏溪沙”的體育學院先回到“馬鞍山市中心”對出的海濱公園休息。喝了大半瓶水，休息了差不多15分鐘，才慢條斯理走回路。

一如以往在新加坡，聽著愛歌，享受著迎面而來的微風和柔和的陽光，沿途見的是一幕幕海景，身心很是舒暢。

有段小插曲。開始不久見到有一小男孩全副武裝剛開始踩上一架正規Racing Bike，感覺有點怪-“那不是你應踩的”。不經意地過了他，然後又不經意地被他過了。說實在，自去了新加坡後，只要我有心去衝，除了我摯友James外，我是不會讓，也從沒有人可以，過我。感覺有點不憤，想過他，但他竟不受迎面風影響，速度還越來越快，距離越來越遠，到我盡力時也只能和他keep住constant距離。最後他還半途回頭，沒仇報。是我真的老了技術生疏嗎? 為了證實，我沿途過人時用了“返”，心想我還是可以的。

有時，就好像今天，有些事，我還是喜歡一個人去做。曾以為自己不喜歡孤獨，讀過水瓶重視私人空間還歪了嘴冷笑，但慢慢發覺原來我還真的需要並很sensitive自己的私人空間。始終有些私事還是要撇除別人的影響，獨個兒去做才能從中真正享受的。

對於今天的行程，我還是滿意兼享受的。

爆想要，但要儲錢 (>.<)

A picture can tell more than thousands words

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無意按到Audio，聽到的是她曾放在blog的background歌曲with remix，眼角竟然濕了，思念。

Unhappy Birthday

There is so much to say.

I am not a religious person but I must thank (whoever) God for helping me to make my day. My goal and mission were completed eventually with determination and fury.

It has been told that the annual dinner will be held on my birthday since November. I have requested to help planning this one of the greatest functions of the year for the company. It was approved with high expectation from the Broad of Directors (basically my family). I have set one simple goal: Make sure our big boss will not shout at all of our employees at the end of the function to make them stay while giving way for our honored guests to leave the site. It sounds funny but that was what a practice for years. The annual dinner supposed to be a happy event but always 衰收尾. We need, and it is time, to make a change.

I was in Japan when the organizing committee of the function held their first meeting, so I assigned our IE, Ann, to attend the meeting on behalf of IE/me. I supposed that we will be rather involved in planning and preparing the function, but our greatest Admin Dpt has assigned us to:

1. Plan the flow of the function
2. Plan the seating arrangement
3. Look after the prizes and gifts during the function

I was disappointed when Ann provided me the report. Oh well, if that is what has been decided in the meeting with all the departments, and in reality our IE Team was already loaded with normal work and was understaffed, I had nothing better to say but to accept.

There was no further news after that meeting, not until I urged the Admin Dpt twice to pass me the programs that they want to put in the function so that we could plan for the flow. By the time I received the information it was already a week away from the annual dinner. They gave me nothing related but their plan in arrangement for the preparation. IE Team’s job was greatly reduced to only plan for the seating arrangement. I must admit that I got little bit frustrated but well, I still sacrificed a morning and discussed that with my team.

We used what the Chinese people like to call “Scientific Management” to plan for the seating arrangement. In modern Industrial Engineering our method is more commonly known as “Common Sense”.

I passed that to the 王馬褂 of the Admin Manager and he agreed to follow/arrange accordingly. I walked up to the Admin Manager the next working day and wanted to discuss with her if there should be any modification to the seating arrangement. She said our plan was not appropriate and she already had her own plan. I told her I understood our Team might not have come up with the best plan and that was the reason I wanted to talk to her, but she simply rejected harshly and asked me to say no word. I really wondered who and what the 4v(k she thinks she is. It really got to my nerve and I told her that if that was the case our Team would just step out of the function planning from that moment onward since our work was not appreciated and that we had our own work to do. I walked out of the room and accidentally slammed the door loud. I swear I have never intended to do that purposely. I would apologize for that if it was another time, but I did not think it was necessary and so I just left that as it was. By the way, I later found out that even though she said she had her own plan for the seating arrangement, but her Admin Dpt used our plan from the beginning to the end. I really wondered what she meant by “her plan”.

Admin Dpt has made one of the greatest arrangements for the flow of the function in years: allowing our employees to bring the dinner back to their dorm so that the Admin Dpt would have more than enough time to clear the canteen and transport all the benches to the site of the function. This could of course result in messing up the living places and to clog all the drains and toilets. I brought that up in the Management’s Meeting. Our big boss instructed me to work with the Admin Dpt to think of a better way to do that while the annual dinner was just 4.5 days away. I led my Team and worked out what we thought the feasible plan with fine details after 算完又算, and went though it with the Admin Dpt the next day. The Admin Dpt regarded the fine details of our plan had gone too far beyond. They had every reason why the details of our plan were not necessary without giving our Team a clear view of what they had planned and would do to ensure that everything would run smooth.

We did not have a happy ending as annoyance filled up the room. Eventually both Admin Dpt and IE Team agreed that IE Team would list out all the milestones and time constraints for the preparation of the function. Admin Dpt promised to post that onto the public notice broad together with their corresponding detailed arrangements that would go with ours.

The IE Team worked out our job and put that in our formal meeting minute according to our original plan. In the other words, those milestones and terms are achievable if the preparation was organized and completed in our way, even though the schedule would be a little bit tight. I signed it at the corner to show that I have confirmed the content is true with my best knowledge and understanding. We want the preparation to be well planned so as to reduce the possible hardship brought to our employees due to unpreparedness. I did not expect this piece of paper just turned out to have a negative effect with an opposite approach. The Admin Dpt trapped us and posted only our meeting minute without their corresponding plan. Without their corresponding plan our meeting minute appeared to force every department to work out their each and own individual plan to accomplish my Team’s arrangement. In the other words this publication misled the whole company and brought about complaints to my IE Team. I was so annoyed and the excuse that the Admin Dpt replied me was that they were just too busy. Who was not busy at that moment, huh!?

If it was a trick, then it would be my time to play mine. I sent out an email to all departments telling them to get ready and to expect the detailed arrangement from the Admin Dpt would come soon. In less than half an hour the Admin Dpt sent out their original plan with slight modification that was insignificant to be considered as a change. I was totally disappointed and started to worry about it.

To add on to the bad coming over, the weather forecast had been giving us bad news. I had raised that to the Admin Manager that we need a backup plan but she said 大不了just cancel it. What can I say? The Admin Dpt is the official department responsible for planning the function but they are giving it up. I could not stand her 4v(king attitude so I asked our JIE, Compass, to check the feasibility of moving the venue of the function into our canteen block instead of having it outdoor. He checked but his reply was simply not what I wanted to hear.

It was less than 18 hours before the function should start when it was freezing and showering outside. The official weather forecast of Dong Guan at that time stated that there would be shower. I quickly made a screen print and sent that to the respective personnel, no one ever replied.

It was my birthday, but I found myself in 谷底when I got up. The shower turned out to be heavy rain and that 617(^, Admin Manager, started to be nervous and worry about what she could do as she did not have a backup plan. If the annual dinner were to be cancelled I bet the 1200+ employees would get very disappointed and upset, especially for those who had practiced so hard for the shows/performances for that night. I purposed to move the whole function to an outside indoor venue to ensure the function could still go on and the rest of our plan would not be interrupted. She agreed right away and dragged me to sell this idea to our big boss.

Chinese people have 奴性思想. Unlike what people in the other countries would work on their own to complete their given tasks, Chinese people always rely on the management, or the Head, to give every instruction to tell them what to do step by step to complete their given task. Before we reached our big boss’ office that 617(^ asked me if we should discuss with him instead of proposing our idea. I told her that he had already been buried with workload and it was our responsibilities to give him options instead of giving him questions.

Our big boss had been emotional for the time due to the poor performance of each individual in the company in general, so when we first introduced and talked about we need an alternative plan, he was already mad and came up with his own pessimistic plans- to cut the function into halves and to let the shows/performances done sometimes the next week (but who would be there to see the shows/performances if the lucky draws were drawn after the dinner that night?), or just to postpone the whole function till after the Chinese New Year. Any of these would directly affect the mood of every individual of the company as they all have their expectation for that night. I told him my idea but his reply was simply discouraging, 撥我冰水. At the end I asked how much the budget I could have if I could make it my way no matter what. “Limitless” was what I heard in a gloomy tone.

In less than 15 minutes the 617(^ and I found ourselves in a theatre nearby available for that night. In the following 45 minutes we had the Management’s Meeting back in the office and confirmed to move our function there. Every people in the Admin Dpt from the CFO to the clerks worked around to get the transportation settled and I ordered my team to quickly come to their office to work out the transition together. I have requested/demanded that the IE Team to plan out the details of every step of the function. Compass was sent to the site to help set up while Ann and MQ would help to plan for the revised seating arrangement and transportation procedure. I travelled back and forth to the site and the company to obtain what my Team needed to know before they could plan and act.

By the lunch time we got the seating arrangement revised and we agreed that we would meet again after lunch at 1:15pm. At 12:50pm when I was still having lunch with Emama, that 617(^ called and demanded me to appear in the Admin Office right away in a rushing tone. I asked what happened and she told me that her people need to get to the theatre to tell the people about our revised seating arrangement. I said that should be done in no hurry since the chairs we needed to add had not even been transported there and I was still having my lunch. That 617(^ said there was no time to relax but to work, ordering me to drive her people there. Anger just filled my brain and I shouted through my phone that she could just call instead of sending someone there just to pass the seating plan; and we need her people to stay in the company to help organizing the transition. I slammed my phone then called Compass and told him the plan then called back the 617(^ telling the people on that side had already known about the seating arrangement so just gave me time to finish my lunch and I would appear at 1:15pm sharp.

There was already a crowd outside the Admin Office when I got there before 1:15pm. I walked in and the situation inside was in chaos. That 617(^ complaint and that made me to scream at her. She wanted to send my IE Team and everyone in Admin to the theatre to help setting up while she would stay behind and “take care the rest”. I said we need someone to stay in the company to plan and help organizing every detail of the transition, she shouted back saying no plan was needed. I did not mean to start a fight but I shouted that all the chaos we had for that day was a result due to no plan/unpreparedness; and I did not want that to happen anymore. I told her that I only want to have a smooth and happy night so I did not what anything to happen again to hinder that. I am going to 遇神殺神遇佛殺佛if anyone or anything stops me. She shut up and I continued to instruct the people what to do next.

When I got to the theatre the first thing I did was asking if the people I sent there before had their lunch yet. Then I passed them our revised seating arrangement but added that 將在外軍令有所不從, as they know the best about the situation at the site and our plan was for their reference only. I did not want our plan to make anything unrealistic to them.

I quickly returned to the company to work with the rest of my team for the transportation procedure. Luckily Ella was there to help them before I got back. We did not only plan for how many rounds we need to transport all the people there but which department would go on which bus and the sequence of which department should go first according to the seating arrangement that we computed earlier so that there would not be chaos when the people arrived the theatre. By the time we completed it was only 45 minutes away from the first round of people to gather and get transported to the theatre.

After a bowl of hot soup Emama and I travelled to the theatre and I started to help around after settling her down. The crowd started to move in in a little bit chaos at the beginning, but that was quickly settled. Our transportation procedure worked out fine and the first group of people moved to the front seats, while the second took the top and the last took the back of the theatre. Everything seemed systematic and just worked out as planned and desired; I only heard about complaints from Ann that she argued with that 617(^ when that 617(^ asked the people to有位就上 while Ella and her tried to arrange people to get on the bus as planned. I assured her that as long as what we did was for good we needed not to care about courtesy at that moment.

Our big boss was the last one to get there. He did not complain anything and I was glad about that. Everyone was ready for the function to start but the lighting professionals from Shao Guan arranged by that 617(^ did not get the lighting and audio set up in time. Everyone waited for at least 40 minutes and the function was forced to delay for 10 minutes. By the way the lighting that night was really bad as the audience was always irritated by the strong lights shining straight into our eyes. What kind of lighting professionals they were!?

We planned the path for our guests to walk through to the stage but that 617(^ told them the other way, making them to walk past a narrow way and behind the AV control station. That was simply and definitely dumby dumby dumb.

All the performances were great excepted for the one featuring that 617(^’s 王馬褂. I just 睇唔過眼 all the performers where there to perform as background for him during his singing. What the 4v(k!?

Compass came to me during the show saying that he had not packed his stuff since I sent him there but he must get back to HK that night. I asked the CFO what the plan was for the HK employees and he told me everyone would leave at 9:30pm sharp. I told him about Compass’ situation and he said just to ask Compass to get a taxi back and forth and tried to get back by 9:30pm on his own. It was already 9:05 pm and I fully understood his decision was for majority but I did not respect that. I quickly got back to Compass, pulled him onto the car and I drove him back to the company. It was 9:07pm when I started my car and we got back at 9:24pm just in time for the closing of the function. As I knew I had to go up to the stage for the lucky draw, I asked Emama to do that for me so that I could take care of Compass. I did not and would not want to have somebody to work so hard but got left behind. That is not my style of managing my people.

The MCs started to call the managers to go up to the stage for photo taking, although I am not a manager I should be in the photo as well as a 工作人員 at least. But since Mummy was not there and I just did not feel like taking pictures with the group as I did not like the whole function even my Team and I had worked so hard for it, I stepped aside.

Before the end of the show I repeated again and again the moving out procedure would be FILO, but that 617(^ announced it would be the same way as the crowd moved in, that is, FIFO. That would of course cause chaos so I grabbed a mic and took care of the moving out announcement. Everything was smooth until I took a picture with our big boss and that was when that 617(^ told everyone it was free to leave the theatre. I got so angry and she made me shouted at her in front of everybody. I grabbed back the mic and told the crowd it was cold and raining outside so please stay as we did not want anyone to get sick, especially for those returning home for the holiday who needed to travel on crowded trains for 10+ hours. However I did not have to shout and our big boss did not have to shout to ask the people to stay behind. My goal was accomplished. At least we had a happy ending and my mission was completed.

I really appreciate everyone who had worked for the function except for that 617(^, so I declared that I would buy them a dinner after the Chinese New Year as a token of appreciation.

When we got back to the company I asked our big boss if he would join us to 飲夜茶, he recommended in a demanding tone to stay and get some congee at the canteen. I basically ignored and drove off. He did not understand me that I knew I should be eating at the canteen with everyone but I just did not want to see that 617(^ that night anymore. It was my birthday so just leave me alone so that I did not have to do anything that I did not like to do for that night anymore. Anyway, our big boss had never verbally said Happy Birthday to me that day as a father, he just sent me an email and I did not feel any warmth from his words. Real sad…

I am really proud of having such a unique Team. They managed to work with me through difficulties that seem “impossible” enough for many people and I could see 150% teamwork in this function. Thank you so much, my Team! In contrast that 617(^ only spoiled our plan, she is really成事不足敗事有餘. I really 放長雙眼睇天點收佢.

樂仁

Merry Christmas 2007

Happy New Year 2008