Memory is
about the past; experiences and commitments.
Commitment made with sincerity yet fails to fulfill is always in my mind. I could not forget the one I made years ago. It was well planned, organized and prepared, but
failed to be executed due to the misfortune at that time.
I always
try to be ignorant to every single incident or object that can trigger and
remind me about it. The more efforts I put
on to forget it, the more I remember my broken words.
It came to
my mind again recently when it was raised. It took me some moment to finally make up my
mind after thoughts and attempts to keep ignoring. I could not hide it anymore in my mind. A lot of questions asked before; my mind was
blank when I thought I would be confused.
Yes, I must have thought about it too much, far more than needed or
expected.
Memory
cannot be erased but faded. I bet this
one will be. The hesitating mechanism has been proven wrong
over the years and it is time for me to stop looking back. Nothing could be, can be and will be changed no
matter what. For the sake of everyone
actually it comes, came and had come to the end years ago. I should have let it go so I must let it
go. May every moment we treasured lies
softly in the chest in my mind with a lost key.
May every good thing be with you.
