何必?

我承認那並非百份百的理由，但無可厚非，我為什麼要這樣做? 做了那麼多為的又是什麼? 到頭來竟然又被backstabbed，心死了，烣盡滅，好想離開，但最後始終留係度獻世，日日做著同樣的苦役補鑊，日日被同樣的問題困擾著，而問題的root cause就是我為之出手之處，但又不被了解更莫講領情，我又何必自作孽犯賤挨苦?

好了，其中一個較擔憂的包袱被擱下，可以花多點時間做我想也應該做的事，是件好事。

我啃唔落

攞威攞彩，行政精彩；
辦事能力，人事無力。

吹得就吹，推得就推；
無事出頭，有事宿頭。

訓示一流，做嘢即溜；
字字豬機，悶鬼死你。

職務龐大，責任狂貸；
揾佢揹飛，實做死你。

事事無plan，有排你驚；
Action唔多，成日甩拖。

成事不足，敗事有餘；
你所委托，永無着落。

事後檢討，係佢最好；
話佢唔好，實有排嘈。

呢個部門，如何是好?
如此落去，劈炮唔撈!

放

呢期真係好down.

太陽好猛，天朗氣清，係好亦係壞。

知道可以有私人時間，天時地利人和，決定relax下，去踩單車。

去到大埔都唔早，租咗單程去大圍，隨意踩到海濱，經沙田去馬鞍山，再返沙田去大圍。

可能太曬，路都無乜人。著埋黑色，迫埋汗出嚟，不停灌水，希望天氣轉涼前盡減。

比預期前早到，亦都無預期咁有效，但無可厚非，心情已經比之前好好多。

Shame on Me

Yes, we held the Olympics.
Yes, we sent couple of spaceships up to the space.
Yes, everyone is trying to dig a share off our wealth.

BUT,

We made harmful dog food that poisoned some lovely puppies overseas.
We manufactured toys which contain lead that can poison some innocent children.
And now, we even have toxic milk powder that kills babies.

Just disappointing.

I just had a terrible experience.

The dumbies supposed to be in-charge of some preparation of the Mid-Autumn function were unwilling to bear responsibilities, so they basically did absolutely NOTHING until I urged/ordered them to do so. Plan was discussed but was not executed as supposed, just acted as they like. No order, true ugly faces come when there is conflict over individuals’ values. Corruption, even for some cheap crap. The whole scenario was in terrible chaos; people shouting, squeezing, and fighting just for something with almost no value. Some shameful bastards even thought that since the gifts were meant to be for them so just gave them, no rule or order should be applied; did not matter if it was fair to others.

Sad.

In conclusion,

Chinese does not know how to queue.
Chinese does not care for the others, AT ALL.
Chinese’s value is “just get it before it runs out; does not matter if it is needed”.
Chinese is neither logical nor trying to be.
Chinese is short sighted and does not consider anything happens the day after.
Chinese in general is born and educated to be uncivilized.

I’m proud that our ancestors made some of the greatest history that changed the world, but I just won’t feel proud to be a Chinese living in the present. I would be “faceless” if I stand among people coming from other parts of the world.

Shit.

一年

咁就一年。

返咗嚟一年，回望，好似乜都無做到，乜都做唔到，但係無可否認身邊已經變咗好多，但係好係壞就唔知，亦都無閑情去理。

日日都好忙，自己攞嚟。制度無變，日日爆獲，救火，揹起啲鑊，越揹越多，砸死。求變，一步一步實行，一句推翻，照舊，日復一日，無間，心身皆殘，等死。

黑暗，無光，無望，全間都係咁，包括我在內，哀。