Hoped a lot, but nothing comes true.
Have been expecting my trip to US, expecting something I have desired for long. Shit happened, plan ruined, I hoped for the best and thought that I had expected the worst, but when it came, it still hurt. I had my hope till the night before my scheduled flight but I still had to let it go. What the 4vck the Heaven wants from me? I have more than enough shit already. Can't you just give me a break?
Damn it!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Curse of Spring
It has been being a curse to me, in spring, especially in April if my memory is not wrong.
I am not the type of coward that tries to escape from challenges, but this time, I really want to stay away from the misfortune. I fully know that if something really goes undesired it will just become a disaster and hurt all. PLEASE, SPARE US!!
Nightmare. I do not stop just worrying about now but for the future! If nothing is improved I and my family members in future will definitely be hurt and haunted. I truly believe it is time for me to setup the foundation to refresh and straighten everything, and for me to act right upon before it becomes too late. I care less about who will be the barrier but I swear I will just nail him straight down to meet Satan.
The picture posted by my beloved on her blog actually has another meaning, but it makes me feel warm and I regard it a lucky charm to me and my family for the current issue. Thank you so much, my DEAREST.
If Heaven owe me a wish as compensation for all my never-come-true Birthday wishES over the years, this time, please, shower my family with all my missing blessings so that everyone and everything will turn out fine.
I am not religious but now I realize how feeble I am in front of cruelty. The breathlessness is going to kill me someday. I have the urge to find a personal space just for hide.
I am not the type of coward that tries to escape from challenges, but this time, I really want to stay away from the misfortune. I fully know that if something really goes undesired it will just become a disaster and hurt all. PLEASE, SPARE US!!
Nightmare. I do not stop just worrying about now but for the future! If nothing is improved I and my family members in future will definitely be hurt and haunted. I truly believe it is time for me to setup the foundation to refresh and straighten everything, and for me to act right upon before it becomes too late. I care less about who will be the barrier but I swear I will just nail him straight down to meet Satan.
The picture posted by my beloved on her blog actually has another meaning, but it makes me feel warm and I regard it a lucky charm to me and my family for the current issue. Thank you so much, my DEAREST.
If Heaven owe me a wish as compensation for all my never-come-true Birthday wishES over the years, this time, please, shower my family with all my missing blessings so that everyone and everything will turn out fine.
I am not religious but now I realize how feeble I am in front of cruelty. The breathlessness is going to kill me someday. I have the urge to find a personal space just for hide.